Some flaw deep in your core being simply won't allow you to choose between one life and millions. You see that as a sign of weakness. To me, that's your greatest strength. It also tells me I can count on you to cover my ass.
Now, let's make like a wolf and get the pack out of here. On the outside, the five of you are villains, predators, remorseless sociopaths. But inside, there's a flower, the flower of goodness. And when it blooms, and you feel that tingle of positivity radiating from your body, you are going to want to feel it all the time.